Does anyone notice I'm still here?
Does anyone notice that even with the medicine it's getting worse?
Does anyone notice that even though I have made it two weeks, my problems have simply shifted?
Does anyone notice that it is harder and harder for me to keep my head above water?
Does anyone notice that I crave any expression of any love more than ever?
Does anyone notice that I am falling deeper and deeper?
And yet no one has any chance of saving me. Passed off so many times.... And I can't blame you.
I can't even find my list of happy things happy anymore.
Maybe it will end.....
I'm still here, Torri! I may not be with you physically, but I am with you in prayer. I knew this last month would be difficult for you, and have had you in my thoughts and prayers. God is answering! You were accepted into to the program!!! Don't give up. Cling to HIM. I love you, but HE loves you MORE. There is no mountain He will not climb, no ocean He will not swim, no expanse He will not cross for YOU. He is intricately involved in the details. Don't lose faith. You are NOT alone.
ReplyDeleteIsaiah 40:28-31 Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary,and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
Hang in there, sister. You may feel as if you've been "handed off," but I haven't let go. I've just joined hands with others so that you can be supported more sufficiently. I'm still lifting you up, but with help... and most importantly, continued help from the LORD.
I will be out of town for the month of July, but can be reached. Send me those updates by email and call/text with what's going on. Keep me in the loop. I WANT to hear from you. I will continue to pray... pray... pray... and the Holy Spirit will do the comforting.
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!