HATRED

I hate you. I hate this blog. I hate you for taking away any sense of privacy, security, and anything I've ever had.

I hate you for taking away my hopes and my dreams.

I hate you.

You have brought so much pain about in the past few days that I can hardly breathe. I feel more alone, more hurt, more betrayed, and completly and utterly alone with no esccape than I ever have before.

There is no running away. There is no running to anyone. I have no place to go and nowhere to run. There is more of an urge to end it now than there ever was before.

There is no where I can even turn to for a hug who hasn't betrayed me. There is nowhere I can run.

I feel like I'm sitting inside this tent, in a crazy storm. Everyone I ever thought I had as support is the storm and God is this tent surrounding me. God is what is sheilding me from this storm. As long as I sit here he will comfort me and hold me while I cry. He has a plan for this, no matter what it is if I just hold on. I was doing fine and now I am holding on for dear life. I am holding on with everythign I have. I can't let go. God, please bring me someone to get me through this. God please give me the strength to carry on. Please help me to love my enimies GOd.... I need you more than ever now.