Pathetic

I am so pathetic.

All I want is a friend. Someone who drops everything to care about me and someone I can drop everything to care about. I want a friend who thinks throughtout the day, "I wonder how Torri's doing?" and that I can do the same with. I need interaction with people. I want to be able to care about you and have it be a two way street.

It seems like everyone I try to reach out too doesn't want to be my friend. They want to be my mentor. Or they want me to be their mentor. But there is no mutual friendships.

I am pathetic. I live for the few social interactions I have where I am wanted. My mondays are moivated by class. My tuesdays are motivated by Devos, class, and chill hours. My wednesdays are motivated by counseling and bible study. My thursdays are motivated by class and awana. My fridays are motivated from working cafe. My saturdays are simply not motivated now that I don't clean the church. And my sundays are motivated by church and my afternoons with daniel.

It's just pathetic.