The Flashbacks are Coming Strong Tonight

Tonight I was facebook chatting with my rapsit's little brother. He is my age and we went to school together. We were friends before I knew that the guy who raped me was his brother. We talk from time to time just as freinds. Today the topic of his brother came up. He said: So um.... what did you two talk about for him to tell me not to talk about you around him or something like that? Knowing that he thinks about me and is haunted by my name was the most terrifying and empowering thing in the world. But more terrifying. He knows who I am by name. I can't escape this guy. And he is always going to deny it. Basically I'm not sleeping tonight. Too many flashbacks. Too many nightmares. Too much alone.